What an amazing weekend in RL!

    Ciao! 

Annyeonghaseyo! 

Konnichiwa! 

Hello! 

This blog is a little different. This blog is more RL an it is Sl but since the two are merged and have been since 2017 when I relocated from my birth place in Illinois to Lakeland Florida. It was on a whim that I even ended up in Florida but I have family in Lakeland and in Jacksonville Florida so it made it easier for me to spend time with family that I haven't seen in years. When I moved to Lakeland I wasn't even thinking that I'd meet up with Zeke again. I went to school with Zeke and after graduation (He graduated a year before me) we kept in contact via Email as he was off to college in New York in the fall. Over the years we talked by email and I twisted his arm (begged the shit out of him lol) in March of 2012 to make an avatar so we could hang out and chat more in a virtual sense lol and by August we decided to partner. Over the course of 6 years I decided that I needed a change. My mom's boyfriend passed away, then I had a very close friend of mine get killed in a horrific car accident (he was like a brother too me, but we grew up together too and he and I had both gone through some bad shit in our marriages). It was time to get away from all the demons and ghosts so I left them all behind and came to be closer to other family we have in Florida. Who knew it was going to be the best decision of my life? I never seen it coming. I found Zeke by accident in a cafe and we sat and chatted, we got where we called one another, we'd visit one another at our homes and then one day randomly he and Id be laughing about some crazy high school antics and he got really serious and said to me..."Would you like to go out with me to dinner sometime?" I looked at him and grinned playfully and then asked him if he was asking me out. It was so cute he then stepped closer to me and leaned forward and kissed me on the cheek very sweetly and whispered yes. I know my chin hit the floor, I never expected him to be interested in me, it felt like friend zone all these years so I was comfortable in my own skin with him in any setting because there was no pressure. Of course I accepted the invitation, I mean come on I always thought he was gorgeous so for me to decline would be stupidity on my part....Which I'm really glad and  thankful we did go out to dinner on a date. I had it made really because there was no need for an ice breaker or talk with a man I didn't know and I was very comfortable with him. I ended up spending the night with him because of a storm and he was a perfect gentleman but I admit I liked snuggling with him. From there it only progressed and over the passing months we got closer and closer. We dated for the remainder of 2017 and in early 2018 he asked me to move in with him and I did.  So its been about a full year that we have lived together now. He had to go for a business trip for his business (he owns his own business) so we went to Chicago this past weekend and it was fun, we did things  I haven't done since I was a child with my parents so we were two adult kids running around in the museums, parks, shops and we went into one in particular, he said he wanted to get his mom something for her birthday (which he did) but his brother has this girlfriend and he said I was similar too her in my taste of  clothing and accessories and his brother asked him to ask me if I was going to get married what ring I would fall in love with. I showed him a few that I loved, one that was just amazing and said honestly if you and I were going to get married/engaged you know me well enough you'd know how to buy for me. He and I both laughed and pointed at the very same ring I hugged him and said baby you know me well. He said OK and he took a picture of the ring and I wandered around the jewelery store a little more and I bought a couple of rings. He came over and said you ready Princess (he has always called me Princess since school days) I said if you are I am as well. So we left. We were flying back to Florida Sunday morning, so we needed to get back to the hotel and get some sleep, it was an early flight...6:00 AM. We got up and gathered our possessions and off to the air port on our way back home. We got home and it was still morning I mean 2 Hours and 35 Minutes  and our drive from Tampa Air Port is 41 Minutes so it was about 10:30 AM. We decided to go to the beach with his brother and soon to be sister in law. While I was sitting in a chair beach side Zeke was doing a lot of grinning. I laughed and said what?? He said I was going to wait and do this tonight at dinner but I cant wait. I did give him a strange look and said OK? He got up came over too me knelt down and kissed me, then he brought a small box up and opened it.....As he opened it he looked at me directly, sincerely and seriously (we're always being silly and joking) and he took my hand and said (My real name) you know that I love you and that Id do anything in the world for you but I have a burning question thats eating me alive that I need you to answer for me. I nodded as he showed me the contents of this little box he said (My Real Name), will you marry me?

I was so stunned and shocked because I was under the impression his brother was proposing to his girlfriend then Zeke proposes to me. I looked up at him my eyes wet as they started to tear up and I slowly began to nod and said Yes.

So, yes I said YES to Marrying him!

here is my lovely ring from a man that is just amazing!

So we haven't set the date yet but I'm sure we will and it will be a very lovely planned wedding event. My baby only wants the best!

So it rings true I've been his bride in Second Life for 6 years it's only natural to become his bride in real life too.

Thank you baby for giving me a beautiful life for the passed 2 almost 3 years. Relocating to Florida was the best thing that I ever decided to do, I Love You (Zeke's real Name)!

Lionel Richie had it right

Ciao!

Annyeonghaseyo! 

Konnichiwa! 

Hello!

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I wanted to share some time Zeke and I spent together just the night before last. 

My poor baby has been so busy in his RL business and unable to really come in and spend SL time with me, but that is OK because the RL is far better because I get to really snuggle him and well thats better than a pixel any night. He was out on a job which took him several states away and he wanted to come on and spend some time with me before he turned in for the night. I swear I have the sweetest man alive. Granted I have an avatar that I use to do photos and it's simply because I dont expect him to stop what he is doing in our RL to get on SL and play with me. That isnt going to accomplish anything for him and that wouldnt be right for me to expect that and be that damn demanding on his time.

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Ladies....Your proof is within the man

If he loves you, he loves you...

Dont question him and give him the room he needs, suffocation is never a good relationship breeder. Its a fucked up kink that is dangerous and personally I choose him to be very warm and very much breathing and alive in just the very same way I choose to be myself besides necrophilia is not a turn on for Zeke or I either one, just sayin! 

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My collected thoughts about my SL husband and myself in our RL.

You can also find this in my profile(s).

When worlds blend so perfectly they become seamless. 8-28-12 isn't even the beginning for us but only one start for whats been between us for many years. They always said that the most likely pairs were opposite one another. We are two very different people yet what we have and shared and we continue to, to this very day is rare and special. I can't imagine a world with out you in my lives. We are rare diamonds with a beautiful luster. We are perfect the way we are and what we share is something no one else can and that is our hearts. We've had so many chances to be where we are and in the position we're in now and uncertainty has been the biggest detourant but when the time was right you jumped and we leaped into something so wonderful, beautiful, amazing and forever lasting. love you to the moon and back.

xoxox

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Music 

 Liam Payne, Rita Ora - For You

Lionel Richie - Hello (Our Song)

G-Dragon - Window (Because I Love This Song)

G-Dragon - That Bastard (Zeke's thought about the guy's Before Him)

G-Dragon - One Of A Kind (My Thoughts About Zeke, He IS One Of A Kind To Me)

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All in all at the end of the day....Lionel Richie sums it up the best....

LIONEL RICHIE - HELLO - LYRICS

I've been alone with you inside my mind

And in my dreams I've kissed your lips a thousand times

I sometimes see you pass outside my door

Hello, is it me you're looking for?

I can see it in your eyes

I can see it in your smile

You're all I've ever wanted, and my arms are open wide

'Cause you know just what to say

And you know just what to do

And I want to tell you so much, I love you

I long to see the sunlight in your hair

And tell you time and time again how much I care

Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow

Hello, I've just got to let you know

'Cause I wonder where you are

And I wonder what you do

Are you somewhere feeling lonely, or is someone loving you?

Tell me how to win your heart

For I haven't got a clue

But let me start by saying, I love you

Hello, is it me you're looking for?

'Cause I wonder where you are

And I wonder what you do

Are you somewhere feeling lonely, or is someone loving you?

Tell me how to win your heart

For I haven't got a clue

But let me start by saying I love you

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No matter what I will ALWAYS choose Zeke every time.

I love you so much baby! ❤❤ 

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Grazie

Kamsahamnida (감사합니다)

Domo arigato (どうもありがとう)

Thank You!

This is an explanation as to why I am so slow with SL things this month.

This blog is going to explain my very slow blogging process for May.

Please allow some patience here due to the fact that I am grieving the loss of one of my best friends and brother (we adopted one another many years ago as brother and sister. We are not blood family but you do not have  to be blood  to be family and that we have been for 41 years). So please be kind and understand I am not blowing anyone off with my blogging but I am having a hard time dealing with Eric's death.

This is a photo I took from the crash site. Where the crosses are....If you go behind them the drop that falls off into a strip mining lake is just behind them. Their car came off the roadway and flipped over onto it's side and slide down that incline into a flooded out lake.

This is a memorial graphic I edited in his memory for his friends and family. We are all using it in honor of Eric and the loss we are suffering from his passing.

This is our beloved Eric we lost Monday night at 11:30 PM. My you RIP my brother, I will miss you and love  you! #HeartsFlyHigh

This is another photo I took from the crash site. Where the crosses are....If you go behind them the drop that falls off into a strip mining lake is just behind them. You can see where the trees have been broken off, the car broke them off. As you can see the incline better in this photos and as their car came off the roadway, flipped over onto it's side and slide down that incline where the trees are broken and off into a flooded out lake.

Not sure how one persons life can get so screwed up in a period of 90 days but mine sure has.... I decided that I wanted to move out of the place that I was living in (I am still there temp, just waiting for the place I applied for an apartment to call me then I am gone). After I announce that I was going to move to my mom and her boyfriend of 20+ years he then becomes ill of pneumonia and passes due to complications with his heart and pneumonia. So now my mom no longer wants to reside in her former boyfriend house, which I can understand...The Ghosts (no not like apparitions, ghosts of ones past). So she applied to the apartment building that she wanted into and got in. She mentioned to me that maybe I should go to that one, I'd get in faster she thinks...And who knows I might do that. Well after his passing all hell breaks lose his children are fighting right and left over who gets what and where is my inheritance. They keep trying to bring my mom in as a middle person and I keep telling them it's not her issue please leave her alone and let her grieve without your bickering and fighting. So while were packing our belongings up to get the fuck out of Dodge...Yes I dropped the F-Bomb but you will understand more on why in just a few minutes which will also explain the photos in this blog.  From March 26th 2017 through April 2017 My mom has been on a roller coaster from hell and she can't seem to jump off because shes being pulled in so many directions by his children and I have been trying to be the mediator to save her and then it happened....

May 1st at 11:30 PM there was a car accident with 6 friends in the car. We are listening to this over the scanner (yes, my mom and I have police scanners). We hear of a one car roll over out on the Walmart edge of town, during this wreck we are having some pretty massive rain storms producing alot of water on the roadways and grassy areas, so much to a point that the rivers are busting out of their seams. I live in Illinois in the United States on the Illinois River so when she bursts out of her seams your in for one hell of a flooding period and we are flooded clear down through Missouri. So this wreck we figured was due to alot of water standing on the roadway with no where to go and I am sure this was a contributor but not the initial cause. Well we don't think anything of it because we never heard anything more about the wreck....Until Tuesday. I get a phone call at 5:30 in the morning waking my household up. This phone call was to contact me that one of my closest friends and someone I considered as a brother was killed the night before at 11:30 PM....The very same wreck we were listening to. He and two others were found dead at the scene and the other three were taken by life flight to various hospitals in the area with non-life threatening injuries. So the photos above are for my dearest friend and brother Eric who was killed instantly in that fatal crash on Monday night. They were heading into town, they had been drinking and the rumor is that one of the backseat passengers was arguing with the driver and grabbed the steering wheel thus turning the car off the roadway into the grass in which the car then slide due to the standing water and flipped onto it's side and off into a strip mining lake. I am still in dismay of this and heartbroken because we had plans for us to all get together after I was moved and hang out...Which will never happen now. I will promise Eric that if the guy in the backseat is the cause of this tragedy when he arrives in Hell he WILL answer to me and I will not play nicely, he will regret dying. Eric's services will be this weekend (Saturday) which I will be in attendance along side his girlfriend.

This song by Blood On The Dance Floor came out the very next day....Good timing and the song suits Eric and I along with many of the other people involved in this Fucked Up Family Of Misfits.

#FamilyForLife

#HeartsFlyHigh

#BrotherForever

#BloodOnTheDanceFloor

#DavhieVanity

Thank you to Davhie who <3 my comment to his new song on YouTube, you are awesome! 

Eric would have loved this song. RIP Eric Morse, My Bestie and My Brother, Peace Eternal Bro <3

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g0HHPfbtY68